I hereby declare that this is an official
plea to the Higher Power Above for strength and motivation
to allow me to pull through my final month
all in one level-headed piece.
I pray that the paranoia will disintegrate in the face of open mindedness;
I pray that I will have the patience and kindness to endure.
I told them of how scared I was, that,
in the silent moments where I am left alone in that room with my thoughts,
I would, essentially drive myself insane
with all the conflicting unexplainable emotions
and then end up doing something with sharp objects
that would seem logical and ameliorating at that time.
I love my mind but it does, in fact, hurt me sometimes.
To simply put it- I just need motivation
to continue
In the solitude of the room,
I found my mind voicing-
"Why bother to live since we're all gonna die, anyway?"
It surprised and scares me a bit that it had actually sank that deep into the matter.
Oh Homo Sapiens are indeed, a worrisome mess of a bunch.
And also, to the aforementioned H.P.A- please, please, leave my family alone.
