An Ekebom and Hemmingway Inspired Piece


I heard of this place before.

They told me that all who come here
seek shelter from the noise and the chaos
that surrounds the everyday happenings in the concrete jungle.

I left everything behind and came to start over
in this little emptiness of nothing.
This place is small,
sheltered,
vaccant and
hollow,
as though the only companionship I have is
the echo of my footsteps across the wooden floorboards.
But given what had recently transpired–
it will do.

The house is simple.
It has one bedroom,
a living room with a phonograph thrown in and
a tiny little kitchen with a sink that faces the window.
There is a small patch of land in the back
that left remnants of what used to
blossom and thrive beautifully
under the loving care of one with a green thumb.

I thank my porter who responded with a grunt
as he heaved my bags onto the path,
tipped his hat and drove away.
The rumbling sound of his engine
gradually faded as he drove off
and I was soon left to the company of cicadas
as they bid adieu to the sun to welcome the moon.

I lug both my bags into the house and
carefully transport them up to my room.
Most of my things are brand new
save for whatever I managed to salvage
after the incident.

I unpack my things
and remove the padding–
newspaper, bubble wrap and all.
I hang up my clothes and
do best to make my new bedroom
feel just like home.

And in a tiny corner
in the wooden clothes cupboard
I gently place the most painful
item I managed to salvage–
a pair of half-charred baby shoes,
once worn.

Long Live Liza


Ten years ago I told Liza I loved her.

That was the first time those three words
escaped my mouth and
I remember how she laughed
as she took my trembling hands in hers
and tenderly kissed my knuckles.

That was the last time I saw her.

Liza was everything and anything in between;
I remember different parts of her
as though they were yesterday.
There was her favourite cherry sorbet in spring
and her excitement on the fourth of July.
Our apartment was stacked with
the endless collection of vinyls she hoarded
and the tubes of watermelon flavoured chapstick
she always misplaced.

Liza was a petite frame
with an uncontainable amount of curiousity-
her naivety complemented her carefree spirit
albeit dangerously, that is.
I remember when she would regale me with
her encounters of friendly strangers on the bus
or once where 'that horrid man ran off with
my purse when I distracted by the delicious smell
wafting from the bakery'.

It was precisely ten minutes past eight
that her brother called to deliver the news.
Liza was always determined to
focus straight ahead
when it came to her future
but sadly forgot about the other directions
when she crossed the road.
I suppose it was rather inappropriate of me
to find humour in the manner of her death
but a little voice told me that
she probably would have laughed too.

It has been awhile since
Liza ever crossed my mind
and I have grown out of
the shell I hid under.
But sometimes I lay in bed
at night and wonder
why I still taste watermelon
when I kiss another.


The Little Bright Light

Once there was a little boy
who shined ever so bright.
He befriended the sun by day
and whispered secrets to the moon at night.

The little boy felt lonely
so he ventured beyond his world.
Deep in the dark, gloomy shadows
he stumbled upon a girl.

At first the boy was hesitant
and unsure of what to say.
Eventually he mustered his courage
and invited her to play

Soon he found something very strange
about the little girl in black-
when he tried to make conversation
she never uttered a word back.

Eventually the boy felt tired
and as he slept late into the night
The girl crept slyly into his heart
and switched off all the lights.

To love is to

24 hours in 1 day; January 24. 
That was the mnemonic I used to remember your birthday.

Ironically enough, 

you cried when you told me 
while I was on a strange, jovial high.
The conversation was speckled 
with laughter and disappointment yet 
I'll honestly tell you that conversation 
was the best we've probably had in a while.

You asked me why I wasn't upset or angry. 

I told you I probably 
suffered from 'delayed reaction syndrome' 
and I'll probably cry later 
when everything hits me. 

The first time I cried 

was when I examined my body 
and realized your love bite was no longer there.
I suppose that was when 
it truly hit me I had lost you.

I cried in several intervals-

horrid, interrupted, breaks of unfulfilled cries. 
It was at two in the morn', 
then five when I had to pee, 
ten when I thought of you again 
and one in the afternoon 
when I told myself to just let go.

As I sat and cried, 

I thought of how pathetic I looked 
and laughed to myself 
as I imagined telling you this. 
Then I stopped laughing.

I turned to the pianoforte for solace, 
thinking perhaps the dancing keys 
would soothe me. 
I only managed four chords 
before breaking down.

I told myself out loud to stop crying. 

Eventually, I just let myself 
wallow and cry 
because I knew I needed to to heal.

I asked you if you were happy 

and after the second ask, 
you said you were.

You asked me in frustration 

why I didn't hate you. 
I'm still trying 
to figure that out myself.

It amazes me on how 

I harbour no negative feelings 
towards you.
I hope it stays this way.

You asked 'Are you okay?'

and then you answered 
'No, of course 
you're not okay, 
what a stupid question' 
and then you said
 'I'm so sorry' and 
ended it with my name. 

I replied 'It's alright' 

and then you said 
'No, it isn't' 
and the cycle repeated itself.

You said I would have more time 

to focus on my assignments now 
and that I wouldn't have to look 
at the awful stickers that 
accompanied your messages. 
Somehow, it didn't make me feel any better.

I told you to take care of her, 

to be chivalric and make sure 
she walked on the inside of the road 
and to hold her hand for reassurance- 
just like you used to do for me.

As I got out of the car,

I wished you a happy life. 
But I genuinely mean it, 
I do.


-Two days later; January 28.